closing the book

So, I officially started packing today. It's way harder than I thought it'd be. I thought it'd be just throwing all my clothes in bags, all my stuff in boxes, chunk all that and my guitars in my car and go. WELL considered how tiny my car is, I'm forced to pack boxes to leave at my parents' house and bags to give to good will.

Sorting trinkets, pictures, and random knick-knacks is not a very fun. Im not sure what I want to take and what I want to leave. Found alot of pictures of Mary Margeret and I bundled together with a couple letters she wrote me. I can't help but think about what she would be doing right now if she was still alive. Probably smiling and being awesome. miss her.

4 more days in Memphis. wow. that's not much time at all. even as i'm typing that, reality sinks in deeper. Which is kinda of strange, because most of the time when reality sinks in on me i feel a weight on my shoulder and stress, but this reality makes me feel like floating. God is relentlessly awesome. He finds ways to encourage me in even the most mundane of tasks.

I'm still a little worried about money, but it's not a paralyzing fear. Money doesn't rule me; I'm not moving to Seattle to make lots of money! I've been telling some people about this thing that Mars Hill had me fill out in the internship application, It was 164 questions that tested you on where you are spiritually gifted. I assumed mine would be creative something or leadership something, but my number one spiritual 'gift' is poverty. Which doesn't mean that i SHOULD be poor, it says that I COULD be poor. Which struck me as odd because I struggle with money and financial stability as an idol fairly often. Basically screaming 2 Corinthians 12:9

"But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me."

OK, i've got to go finish packing. here is the current version of my route

26th- Denton, TX
27th- Austin, TX
28th- Roswell, NM (AREA51!!!!)
29th- Farmington, NM
30&31- Grand Canyon

here's where it gets kinda tentitive

may 1st- maybe joshua tree/ maybe LA
2nd- maybe LA/maybe San Fran
3rd- Maybe San Fran/maybe Northern CA
4th- maybe NoCal/maybe Seattle


I'm aiming to get to Seattle by May 7th at the latest. so we'll see.

things i'm praying for:
Safe travels
Easter!!!!! (Jesus wins)
money for travel
at least most of my loose ends to be tied up
Lucie to find a new home ( I had her one, but the girl backed out at the last minute, I really need some help with this...)
Courage