Hebrews 10:31

So, I decided to start a new blog, since I will be entering a new season of my life in a 15 days. My plan is that I'll update this at least once a week.

For those who don't know by now, I'll be moving to Seattle, WA to intern at Mars Hill Church. Once I get there, I'll be Jeff Betger's Assistant. Other than that, I'm not 100% sure what I'll be doing. I know that I will be going through intense gospel centered discipleship and training. I honestly cannot be more excited about this. Being in Seattle is something that God put on my heart about 2 years ago, and as I look back, even into tiny details or occurrences that have happened to me in the past 2 years, EVERYTHING points to me going to Seattle. The fact that God has an ordained purpose for everyone's life has become so clear to me in the past 2 weeks that I really want to encourage other to earnestly pursue what God has planned for you. It might not be easy, but trusting in the Lord is key for discerning what that looks like for you.

As I was doing laundry and sorting books to give people today, I realized that I only have vague ideas as to what God is calling me to do. I have a sense of what my spiritual gifts are, and I know that Seattle is where he is calling me to, but beyond that, I have no clue. Thats one of the things that I hope to get out of this internship, a better sense or vision of what God is calling me to do for him.

I feel like here in Memphis, it's really easy for worshiping God to be a hobby, and only occasionally do I make it my default mode of existence. It's easy for me to be prideful here, because people like me here, and I'm content with that. Which when I realize this, it's disturbing. This life that was given to me is not for me to be liked by people; it's for me to point to God and his sacrificed son in everything that I do. I've been easily tricked into the myth that I'm a 'good' person. I'm a prideful and selfish sinner. In God's eyes, I deserve death and Hell. HOWEVER. Jesus paid that price. So who am I to think that I could do anything good apart from Christ?

I know that moving to Seattle isn't going to automatically make my life awesome. I know that this internship isn't going to be sunshine and roses the whole way. I also know that the all powerful, loving, creator, God loves me, and has relentlessly pursued me, so beyond all else, I will give him glory, honor and praise.

Am I afraid to move 3000 miles from everything I've ever known? kinda. however, I'm even more afraid of what would happen if God were to undeniable tell me where to go and I didn't go. I don't want to have to be eaten by a fish and spit up on the seattle shore. Hebrews 10:31 says, "It's a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the Living God" (ESV) and that's really starting to hit home with me.

I'm on mission. here's some stuff that I'm praying for:
- for Lucie (my dog) to find a good home
-safe travel
- a job (it's an unpaid internship)
- a place to live (Luke 12:22-32)
- courage
- support (prayers, money, or whatever)