So, I officially started packing today. It's way harder than I thought it'd be. I thought it'd be just throwing all my clothes in bags, all my stuff in boxes, chunk all that and my guitars in my car and go. WELL considered how tiny my car is, I'm forced to pack boxes to leave at my parents' house and bags to give to good will.
Sorting trinkets, pictures, and random knick-knacks is not a very fun. Im not sure what I want to take and what I want to leave. Found alot of pictures of Mary Margeret and I bundled together with a couple letters she wrote me. I can't help but think about what she would be doing right now if she was still alive. Probably smiling and being awesome. miss her.
4 more days in Memphis. wow. that's not much time at all. even as i'm typing that, reality sinks in deeper. Which is kinda of strange, because most of the time when reality sinks in on me i feel a weight on my shoulder and stress, but this reality makes me feel like floating. God is relentlessly awesome. He finds ways to encourage me in even the most mundane of tasks.
I'm still a little worried about money, but it's not a paralyzing fear. Money doesn't rule me; I'm not moving to Seattle to make lots of money! I've been telling some people about this thing that Mars Hill had me fill out in the internship application, It was 164 questions that tested you on where you are spiritually gifted. I assumed mine would be creative something or leadership something, but my number one spiritual 'gift' is poverty. Which doesn't mean that i SHOULD be poor, it says that I COULD be poor. Which struck me as odd because I struggle with money and financial stability as an idol fairly often. Basically screaming 2 Corinthians 12:9
"But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
OK, i've got to go finish packing. here is the current version of my route
26th- Denton, TX
27th- Austin, TX
28th- Roswell, NM (AREA51!!!!)
29th- Farmington, NM
30&31- Grand Canyon
here's where it gets kinda tentitive
may 1st- maybe joshua tree/ maybe LA
2nd- maybe LA/maybe San Fran
3rd- Maybe San Fran/maybe Northern CA
4th- maybe NoCal/maybe Seattle
I'm aiming to get to Seattle by May 7th at the latest. so we'll see.
things i'm praying for:
Safe travels
Easter!!!!! (Jesus wins)
money for travel
at least most of my loose ends to be tied up
Lucie to find a new home ( I had her one, but the girl backed out at the last minute, I really need some help with this...)
Courage
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Jeff's blog
so before I even met Jeff, I read his blog, which made me want to plug-in with what God was doing through him. Here's the URL.
http://jsuffering.wordpress.com/
To get to know who I'm working with and what he's about, then check it out. His most recent post is about the Artist Reformation Project. That's one of the thing I'll get to help with.
that's all for today, going back to work.
14 days!!!!
http://jsuffering.wordpress.com/
To get to know who I'm working with and what he's about, then check it out. His most recent post is about the Artist Reformation Project. That's one of the thing I'll get to help with.
that's all for today, going back to work.
14 days!!!!
Monday, April 11, 2011
Hebrews 10:31
So, I decided to start a new blog, since I will be entering a new season of my life in a 15 days. My plan is that I'll update this at least once a week.
For those who don't know by now, I'll be moving to Seattle, WA to intern at Mars Hill Church. Once I get there, I'll be Jeff Betger's Assistant. Other than that, I'm not 100% sure what I'll be doing. I know that I will be going through intense gospel centered discipleship and training. I honestly cannot be more excited about this. Being in Seattle is something that God put on my heart about 2 years ago, and as I look back, even into tiny details or occurrences that have happened to me in the past 2 years, EVERYTHING points to me going to Seattle. The fact that God has an ordained purpose for everyone's life has become so clear to me in the past 2 weeks that I really want to encourage other to earnestly pursue what God has planned for you. It might not be easy, but trusting in the Lord is key for discerning what that looks like for you.
As I was doing laundry and sorting books to give people today, I realized that I only have vague ideas as to what God is calling me to do. I have a sense of what my spiritual gifts are, and I know that Seattle is where he is calling me to, but beyond that, I have no clue. Thats one of the things that I hope to get out of this internship, a better sense or vision of what God is calling me to do for him.
I feel like here in Memphis, it's really easy for worshiping God to be a hobby, and only occasionally do I make it my default mode of existence. It's easy for me to be prideful here, because people like me here, and I'm content with that. Which when I realize this, it's disturbing. This life that was given to me is not for me to be liked by people; it's for me to point to God and his sacrificed son in everything that I do. I've been easily tricked into the myth that I'm a 'good' person. I'm a prideful and selfish sinner. In God's eyes, I deserve death and Hell. HOWEVER. Jesus paid that price. So who am I to think that I could do anything good apart from Christ?
I know that moving to Seattle isn't going to automatically make my life awesome. I know that this internship isn't going to be sunshine and roses the whole way. I also know that the all powerful, loving, creator, God loves me, and has relentlessly pursued me, so beyond all else, I will give him glory, honor and praise.
Am I afraid to move 3000 miles from everything I've ever known? kinda. however, I'm even more afraid of what would happen if God were to undeniable tell me where to go and I didn't go. I don't want to have to be eaten by a fish and spit up on the seattle shore. Hebrews 10:31 says, "It's a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the Living God" (ESV) and that's really starting to hit home with me.
I'm on mission. here's some stuff that I'm praying for:
- for Lucie (my dog) to find a good home
-safe travel
- a job (it's an unpaid internship)
- a place to live (Luke 12:22-32)
- courage
- support (prayers, money, or whatever)
For those who don't know by now, I'll be moving to Seattle, WA to intern at Mars Hill Church. Once I get there, I'll be Jeff Betger's Assistant. Other than that, I'm not 100% sure what I'll be doing. I know that I will be going through intense gospel centered discipleship and training. I honestly cannot be more excited about this. Being in Seattle is something that God put on my heart about 2 years ago, and as I look back, even into tiny details or occurrences that have happened to me in the past 2 years, EVERYTHING points to me going to Seattle. The fact that God has an ordained purpose for everyone's life has become so clear to me in the past 2 weeks that I really want to encourage other to earnestly pursue what God has planned for you. It might not be easy, but trusting in the Lord is key for discerning what that looks like for you.
As I was doing laundry and sorting books to give people today, I realized that I only have vague ideas as to what God is calling me to do. I have a sense of what my spiritual gifts are, and I know that Seattle is where he is calling me to, but beyond that, I have no clue. Thats one of the things that I hope to get out of this internship, a better sense or vision of what God is calling me to do for him.
I feel like here in Memphis, it's really easy for worshiping God to be a hobby, and only occasionally do I make it my default mode of existence. It's easy for me to be prideful here, because people like me here, and I'm content with that. Which when I realize this, it's disturbing. This life that was given to me is not for me to be liked by people; it's for me to point to God and his sacrificed son in everything that I do. I've been easily tricked into the myth that I'm a 'good' person. I'm a prideful and selfish sinner. In God's eyes, I deserve death and Hell. HOWEVER. Jesus paid that price. So who am I to think that I could do anything good apart from Christ?
I know that moving to Seattle isn't going to automatically make my life awesome. I know that this internship isn't going to be sunshine and roses the whole way. I also know that the all powerful, loving, creator, God loves me, and has relentlessly pursued me, so beyond all else, I will give him glory, honor and praise.
Am I afraid to move 3000 miles from everything I've ever known? kinda. however, I'm even more afraid of what would happen if God were to undeniable tell me where to go and I didn't go. I don't want to have to be eaten by a fish and spit up on the seattle shore. Hebrews 10:31 says, "It's a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the Living God" (ESV) and that's really starting to hit home with me.
I'm on mission. here's some stuff that I'm praying for:
- for Lucie (my dog) to find a good home
-safe travel
- a job (it's an unpaid internship)
- a place to live (Luke 12:22-32)
- courage
- support (prayers, money, or whatever)
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